November was good. In retrospect it was…well, I mean, it wasn’t spectacular but it wasn’t horrible! It was exciting and all, but somewhere along the way, there was a…lull. And you know what? That lull was OK. It was needed and appreciated!
An overwhelming eagerness to get the year over with definitely came hard this past month. Not because it was a horrible year, in fact it was a great, clarifying and gratifying year. I believe it’s because I’m finally excited about growth. I’m liking and accepting the changes I’ve made this year and the growth I’ve made towards being a better me and I want to keep at it. Albeit slow, it’s been satisfying seeing myself morph into this new individual. My altered perceptions and general attitude towards life has really got me pumped for the future.
Random Side Update: I’m going strong(er) on my #100HappyDays. And the joy I have derived from eliminating distractions is …worrisome BUT refreshing!
But yea, to be honest, I just really feel the need to stop.
And this people would be my mantra for December.
December generally is a time of reflection for us all. Looking back on the year, the ups & downs, and everything in between. So it’s understandable that I feel this need for quiet. This crushing longing for Solitude.
Another Kinda Random: I did a yoga session with my crazy cousin on a trip this last month and even though I was reminded of how out of shape I was it brought me closer to this moment of solitude I am yearning for. I would LOVE to explore it more this month.
As December crawls in and zooms past us (because time is now Hussein Bolt and is moving at exponential speed each day), I would love to enjoy these moments of quiet and reflection. I want to take in smells, sounds, feelings and just my existence. I intend to use this time to really weigh in on how far I’ve come this year and how far I’m willing to let myself go in 2015. Let me rephrase that. I intend to use this time to really weigh in on how far God has brought me this year and how far I’m willing to let HIM take me in 2015. Cause to be honest, I can’t take credit for all the awesomeness and growth and good stuff that’s brought me to this moment. And this gift of opportunity to sit and reflect… Well, I’m really grateful.
So… as y’all go forth this new month. I really hope you take some time to #justpause and take in moments. Savor them, Remember them. Take in all that’s happened this year and I hope that at the end of it all, you smile.
After all… you’re here. In this very moment…and that’s enough reason to smile.
Till next month…next year really.